tiring

Yesterday just said wan2 be myself.
But today, cry again in office.
Today, is the 1st time i totally lost control,
shout out my feelings,
my hard feelings.
But she cant hear.
Cuz i still have no courage to make a stand in front of her.
what the hell i m.
However,
I should feel grateful.
there r still ppl willing to stand beside me,
encourage me to grow up..
spending time to sms me..
No matter whats their purpose at the end,
I should thank them from the deepest of my heart.
I should convince myself in trusting my capability,
trusting your words to me,
trusting you can give me future.
To her,
I really need to say,
SORRY really doesnt cure.
To the wound on my heart.
I am really tired.
To be another you.